I am a person who benefits from thin privilege who has and does at times share my workout selfies, but try hard not to share counts, distance, times. Mainly because it’s something important to me as something that brings me joy, that is and has been often belittled by family members in ways that led me as a child who deeply benefitted fr…
I am a person who benefits from thin privilege who has and does at times share my workout selfies, but try hard not to share counts, distance, times. Mainly because it’s something important to me as something that brings me joy, that is and has been often belittled by family members in ways that led me as a child who deeply benefitted from motion (I have ADHD that was not identified until I was in my thirties) to see my body as inferior and wrong, because it didn’t and doesn’t fit the picture of what was once deemed “poster child” shapes for what I did and do.
What I internalized wasn’t that moving my body was a privilege but that moving my body for anything but thinness was the wrong reason, and it took me years to undo that mental messaging.
Things I don’t discuss but should when I post a face-selfie after a run now, beyond the thankful feeling for the privilege of being able to move/run/walk/bike/yoga/whatever is that yes I am doing this and yes I am showing this as a thin person but I also have very mild prolapse I had to work to “correct” after childbirth that made it feel like my vag was going to come my
Börthøle (autocorrect on that one— I’m tired of fighting how I have to write that to keep from getting zucced in “this cat is INNOCENT” on Facebook) for 18 months post birth whenever I tried to do more than grocery shop..so to run now feels like a big accomplishment whether it’s tag or light saber battles with my six year old or an unnamed but short and slow distance on a paved trail near my home.
I also am SO fed up with hearing all about sugar and it’s evils in my life. My son received literal pounds of candy for Easter. I’ve been told more than once I need to “eliminate” it from the house and j shut that down like a door caught in a crossbreeze every time. Food is not evil. Kit Kat bars are DELICIOUS. And Not Evil.
I am a person who benefits from thin privilege who has and does at times share my workout selfies, but try hard not to share counts, distance, times. Mainly because it’s something important to me as something that brings me joy, that is and has been often belittled by family members in ways that led me as a child who deeply benefitted from motion (I have ADHD that was not identified until I was in my thirties) to see my body as inferior and wrong, because it didn’t and doesn’t fit the picture of what was once deemed “poster child” shapes for what I did and do.
What I internalized wasn’t that moving my body was a privilege but that moving my body for anything but thinness was the wrong reason, and it took me years to undo that mental messaging.
Things I don’t discuss but should when I post a face-selfie after a run now, beyond the thankful feeling for the privilege of being able to move/run/walk/bike/yoga/whatever is that yes I am doing this and yes I am showing this as a thin person but I also have very mild prolapse I had to work to “correct” after childbirth that made it feel like my vag was going to come my
Börthøle (autocorrect on that one— I’m tired of fighting how I have to write that to keep from getting zucced in “this cat is INNOCENT” on Facebook) for 18 months post birth whenever I tried to do more than grocery shop..so to run now feels like a big accomplishment whether it’s tag or light saber battles with my six year old or an unnamed but short and slow distance on a paved trail near my home.
I also am SO fed up with hearing all about sugar and it’s evils in my life. My son received literal pounds of candy for Easter. I’ve been told more than once I need to “eliminate” it from the house and j shut that down like a door caught in a crossbreeze every time. Food is not evil. Kit Kat bars are DELICIOUS. And Not Evil.
Appreciate all of this! Thanks for sharing.